I’ve finally learned to be thrilled on my own after being alone for a year and a half now.
It was bothering me that I have been alone so long now, but my spirit needs some healing time and I am learning to appreciate it. I’ve been trapped in bad relationships before and it is better to be on your own than to be stuck in a dead end marriage or whatever. I have a flatmate so I am not totally alone here, as we also have three cats to keep us business. Now I am having fun again with HVAC system repairs on my own as well as enjoying my temperature controlled flat with the three cats. I have a wonderful flatmate that covers half the rent, along with all of the heating and cooling bills each month as well as it just makes it easier on my finances and gives me company at the same time. I will meet someone down the road I am sure, maybe it will be another year or two until my heart is ready though. The HEPA filter worker told me that when the heart is ready to open up you won’t be able to stop love from coming in. So I will just do my HVAC tech work each week as well as chug along like before when I was in a relationship, but now I can work on an a/c till late in the evening without feeling like I will get the 3rd degree when I get dwelling late. It all works out in the end so just appreciate the ride.